Major Change!

This past week has been absolutely unbelievable. I cannot express how much I have seen God work through me and through those around me. So many things have happened this past week that have just fully radiated how awesome my God is. (I'm getting goose bumps as I type about this!)

So the title of this blog entry is "Major Change," there are two reasons for that: 

     1. I changed my major this past week. 

     2. I have seen Christ majorly change me. 

1. Major Change #1 

     - This past week (as I mentioned in my last blog) I was called to change my major to work in the Communication Disorders field. Well, I officially made the change on Thursday. I am now a Communication Disorders major specializing in Speech Pathology. My excitement to be in this field is something that really cannot be expressed. 

     - I am someone who absolutely loves to listen to people. Like listening to someone just talk about their life and tell me everything that is going on is something that I could do all day everyday. No hesitation, no regrets. I would spend hours just sitting and listening to people talk about stupid things. I'm also the type of person that loves to watch people grow. Whether it be watching someone physically grow up or watching them grow spiritually or mentally, it just gives me so much joy to see that someone can grow and I can actually watch this process and progress.

2. Major Change #2
     - I have seen a major change in my life since I have been in college. I've been a believer since I was 7, and have grown up in the church and seen God work through people but I have never really  expected him to work through me I guess. He definitely has and still is!
     - When I first started thinking about going to college I wanted to go to TCU, more than anything. That is where I knew I belonged and would end up going. Well hey, looky here, I'm a wildcat at ACU! I only applied to ACU out of force, and got in with a huge scholarship. I thought to myself "okay God, take me where you want." I was so nervous because I didn't know anyone and I was scared I wouldn't make friends. Well, I have made two of my best friends here and they have blessed me more than you can ever imagine.
     - Ever since middle school I have been talking about how I want to be a nurse and then eventually a nurse anesthetist. Like I've pictured myself doing that since 7th grade y'all. Well, Thursday I officially changed my major! God spoke to me, and he spoke loudly. I was called to go into Communication Disorders- Speech Pathology and work with autistic kids/adults. The tug on my heart was something that I have NEVER felt before. I can't even explain it. As I sat and prayed about what I needed to do, I could literally feel God pulling me towards the Speech Path direction and leading me down a road I never knew existed.
      - I have felt God work in my more here in college than I ever have in my whole life. I don't know if it is because I am finally giving all I am to him and letting him determine who I am and how I am going to glorify him with my life or what but it is the absolute best feeling in the world.

Something that has stuck with me is what Logan told me last night (he has no idea I'm putting this in here) but what he said keeps playing in my head. Here it goes:
     "I don't know if I was just blind or stupid in high school, but I feel God working in me so much more in college than I ever did there." I cannot tell you how true this is for me as well. I have never felt God like I have since I've been in college. Logan, you are so full of wisdom and the way you give advice and just talk about the Lord radiates and shows your love for him like no other. When you talk I see God in you. In all that you do. I am beyond blessed to know you and been given the opportunity to get to know you so well. You really are such a blessing to me! 

In my life, especially this week with all that has been going on I have found music to be such an incredible thing and it has really given me so much and impacted me more than I thought possible. I've posted some lyrics from some of the songs that have really been my "rock" this week. I hope you know these songs and can relate to how they make me feel! :)

"Oh that rugged cross, my salvation. Where your blood poured out over me. Now my soul cries out hallelujah, praise and honor unto thee." - Man of Sorrows

"Jesus I sing for all that you've done for me. Worthy is the lamb who was slain. Worthy is the king who conquered the grave." - This is Amazing Grace

"Lifted up, He defeated the grave. Raised to life, our God is able. In his name, we over come. For the Lord our God is able." -God is Able

The Call.

Today has been a special day.

In my development psychology class we had a disabled couple come and talk to us. The husband has autism and the wife has a brain injury from a car accident years ago. They have been married for almost 14 years and are so in love with each other. Their love literally radiates from them as they talk to each other and the looks they give each other. Bertha (the wife) said "A lady years ago made a hugging machine to fill a void, I married one." My heart has been racing ever since they began taking about themselves and their life together.

I have always had a special trait in which I am very patient and willing to listen to anyone about anything. I would rather sit there and listen to someone tell me about their problems than go and talk about mine. I never get upset when having to wait for something or get irritably impatient quickly.

There is a reason I have said all this. Today I felt a call. Today while listening to this beautiful couple speak about their life, I felt a tug.
          - I am currently enrolled in ACU as a nursing major. Today I felt the tug and call to change my major. (You're probably asking, "to what?") Well, I'm thinking about changing to Communication Disorders and heading towards Speech Pathology. I just have such a heart towards working with disabled people. Whether it be children or adults, it just makes me happy listening to them and hearing about everything that they know.

I have never really been one to change my mind. I decide on something and I stick to it. I don't change my mind. Well now I'm considering that I chose the wrong major, that I chose nursing because the type of nursing I wanted to do paid well. I would make so much money. So? Money doesn't matter to me. Money isn't something that I want to have. I just want to do something that I love and do something that glorifies God as I do it. So is he opening a new door for me? One that I can use the abilities (listening and patience) He gave me to glorify him.  Sure, I can't see myself working in an office or anything like that but I could definitely see myself working with people with a  disability that hinders their speech. I really feel like this is something that God is leading me towards.

I have told several of my friends about my thoughts and asked their opinions on what I should do or if they could see me doing what I am thinking about doing. They all said yes. Two of my best friends that are so dear to me have given me incredible words of encouragement that have brought me to tears today. These bible verses and words really hit home and made me think.

"The Lord will keep you from all evil; he will keep your life. The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in form this time forth and forevermore." (Psalm 121:8)

"Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted  among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." (Psalm 46:10)

"Take head to the ministry which you have received in the Lord, that you may fulfill it." (Colossians 4:17)

I am so thankful to have been given such amazing friends that will be by my side no matter what. God has been working through us in magnificent ways and I can't wait to see where he take us next year together! I have finally completely given up my life to the Lord and trust in him that if I am a called to go into Speech Path that he will guide me and make me into the person he has called me to be. I give all I am to him.