always, always, always a planner

So today I finally completed my "second first day of the semester." The first two days are always the worst because you literally go to a class and listen to the professor tell you about themselves and what you are going to learn in the class. Boring right? Right. Well as the day slowly drug on and I attempted to pay attention to what my professors said, I had time to think. Think about what? That's just it, I don't know that I really thought about much at all but then now that I think about it, I thought about what I needed to get done today... and tomorrow... and next week. I find myself thinking so far ahead in advance that I literally stress myself out over nothing at all. I plan out things that might or might not happen, I tell myself, "oh I need to do this tomorrow" or "after I do this, I'll make sure and do this." It's painful. But yet I do it time and time again.

Why? Why do I think about things so far out in the future? Why do I try and plan out every minute of my life? Why don't I just leave it to God and let him take care of it?

I'm human.
Humans do stupid things like this.
We try and plan out things that may not be right.
We fail.

But hey guess what. We have a savior that takes away all our worries and pain.

We shouldn't plan out our lives the way we want. We shouldn't try and make things happen that aren't going to. We shouldn't try and make ourselves something that we aren't. God has a specific plan for our life and who are going to become and what we are going to do. I tend to get so caught up in trying to get things exactly the way I want and when I want.

In Jeremiah 29:11 it says, "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." 

Reading what the bible has to say about my future and what is planned for me gives me such strength. Such a hope that things will be okay. Just the thought that there is a God that cares about my wellbeing, who is always there for me, who knows every little detail of my life that has yet to happen, just gives me chills. There is NOTHING that can satisfy you more than Jesus can. Nothing.

Here lately I have realized that things may not go the way I want. I can't always rely on myself to do things right or the way that they are meant to go. God is in control of my life and I need to just give up trying to completely plan out my life and let God. "Let go. Let God." I have a future with Christ and honestly thats all I need. If I have Christ in my life, he will take care of me. He will lead me in the direction that I am supposed to go.